what ensued. hi. i got diarrhea now. thanks to jumboseafood@stadium. food taste so nice, but after tt make me go toilet FOUR TIMES. kns to the maxmax. still, happy birthday to my dearest stefanie oh jie. shes the best sister, cos shes the only sister i have (:
ok i got work to do now. heres my past week in snapshots.
marie & i. when PR strat meetings make us bonkers bored we pockypoke each other. yes we are special persons. jamiegirl & i. dk why she have no eyebags. roar my innercircle girls. we had a 1 day getaway in sydney it was awesome stuff.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Friday, November 06, 2009
what a feeling.
it's been awhile since i've felt this way. it's un-nerving yet exhilarating . haha. but i believe Wisdom is in me to know what to do. so, i is not worried. i is in much peace. Dad's a good Father. the only Father i have actually, but still the bestest ever! i want a relationship born out of respect and love. i ain't missing out on anything when i walk in His ways. in fact, i am living life to the full! yesyes listen to God-talk instead of snake-talk.
i remember in primary sch. sitting on jie's bed. we read revelations tgt. i got freaked out - dragons & beasts ain't gd bedtime story material! i remember telling jie "wah i hope i get married before the world comes to an end!" told jamiejames this, and he asked if that was my life goal. ha on 2nd thought i think it is! im not ashamed of it man, it's a God-given desire yo. also heard Brian Houston's teaching on His Heart For Your House. there's so much potential in a household sold out for Jesus! relationship, marriage, family, ministry - exciting stuff, no?
sch work is much, but i dont feel shaken at all. maybe a lil tired physically, but joyful still. this is new. haha. every morning i wake up and remind myself that He is my Abba, my Father, who loves me. that keeps me in a gd stead for the day! everytime i feel a bit blah, immediately i sing "My Abba". love it that His presence is so easily accessible. His presence brings comfort, peace, joy, strength, clarity.
okay i go sleep now.
303am. -------------------
I never understood before I never knew what love was for My heart was broke, my head was sore What a feeling
Tied up in ancient history I didnt believe in destiny I look up you're standing next to me What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul Love burns brighter than sunshine Brighter than sunshine Let the rain fall, i don't care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine Suddenly you're mine And it's brighter than sunshine
I never saw it happening I'd given up and given in I just couldn't take the hurt again What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight Suddenly you seemed so right Me and you What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul Love burns brighter than sunshine It's brighter than sunshine Let the rain fall, I don't care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine Suddenly you're mine
Love will remain a mystery But give me your hand and you will see Your heart is keeping time with me
What a feeling in my soul Love burns brighter than sunshine It's brighter than sunshine Let the rain fall, I don't care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine Suddenly you're mine
I got a feeling in my soul ...
[ Aqualung - Brighter Than Sunshine ]
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Thursday, November 05, 2009
What i needed to read & speak out tonight.
If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. And so we knowand rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
We love because He first loved us.
-1 John 4: 12-19
in the Amplified version, "there is no fear" means that "dread does not exist". no dread elissa oh! byebye dread. byebye fear. for i am found firmly rooted in Jesus' love for me yo. ok i really need to go zzz now 12hours nonstopclass tmr!
307am
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
i really wanted the one on the right, but i got a pair that looks like the one on the left instead. boohooohoooo. mummy so nice, mummy paid for me boots, 280bucks, love mummy much. first time we've been out tgt alone for more than 3 hours w/o fighting! bigbreak for this motherdaughter pair i say! praisethelord to the maxmax.
sunday was amazing. Jesus is amazing. Jesus made me cry, He made me hope, He made me laugh. Jesus loves me. that's the best part. that Someone thinks i'm worth dying for.
starrynite next friday. psyched for it. lovin' Chordless right now. jamie and richie are the best electric guitarists in the worrrrld! hahah.
okay this pr strat mtg is making me bonkers and bored. i go now. buy tea. byebye.
508pm.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
It's almost five and i'm in bed w my itouch hoping tt I can soon fall asleep. Tmr is Thursday. The longest day ever int my life tt occurs every week. Sleep now you sleep!!! Managed to find some nice boots online which I want to get for me to wear at gigs. Heels are just a hindrance on uneven platforms. Itouch doesn't allow to upload photos so I shall do so first thing in class tmr. Had mums dinner last night. Crazy eating followed by bad tummy. Daresay I tried the best naan in spore at the place - hyatt straitskitchen. Ambience Astarstar man. Kickass durian ice cream too. But also the reason why I must run on fri AND sun again. Grr thank the good lord tt I love running else god bless my future husband cos he'd be slping nxt to a huge ass wife, literally.
Ok I shall pray/sing myself to sleep now. No nightmares pls thanks gdnight.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Friday, October 16, 2009
my kisses were cheap cos i felt cheap. --
woman finds her true worth when she meets Jesus Christ. when all but one of Jesus' disciples had abandoned Him, who was still at His cross?
the women; women whose lives had been changed by Him.
what God says is worth little is worth little. what God says is worth a lot is worth a lot.
1 Peter 2: 3-4 "your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight."
i want to always know deep in the depths of my heart that He is the One person with whom i am totally safe with, whom i can totally trust, who knows all about me and takes me just as i am and loves me just as i am but doesn't leave me there. He wants to makes me into a woman i'd otherwise never be except for His beauty inside me.
enough abt what you say or what they say, i want to listen to what He says. no one loves me like He does. no one even comes close. - just completed my IE A paper today. not confident abt my answers at all but glad it's overrr. starry nite auditions on saturday, hoping for the best! so glad the chemistry in Chordless is improving sooo much (:
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
i think it takes courage to walk away from an offer. be it from a company's marketing exploit, a beauty parlor's inviting door of offer prices, or a date w someone for the night. it takes strength to walk away from what you know you do not need. do i need that extra dress? do i need that mani/pedi? do i need to get close to some dude at this point in my life?
i've been so used to being cowardly and weak, that life now still needs some getting used to. at 21 and beyond, your actions hold more weight. it's not an excuse for living recklessly before, but yes i want to wisen up in the decisions i make. it means heeding His Word first, it means thinking of others before myself, it means looking at the big picture instead of rushing into taking up the smallest of offers.
THE BIG PICTURE: He will work all things out for my good and He will restore to me double what has been taken! the small offers: Just take what is in front of you cos there won't be a better offer after this one! you need this NOW!
i remember donald miller's words in blue like jazz. the devil doesn't make us do some great evil, but his biggest ploy is in making us waste time. we take up all these seemingly enticing small offers which totally do not contribute to the big picture! i thought that guy could help me heal, help me put my life back into order, help me feel less shitty about myself, help me become a better person. bullshit.
the big picture requires waiting on Him, drawing from Him, seeking Him, following His ways. the big TRUST word is the main thing. trusting that i am more worth it than those beautiful birds on those trees who are well provided for, how much more will He not provide me with what i need? He has given me everything in fact, pertaining to life and happiness. maybe when this really sinks in i'd really stop acting stupid. in the mean time, it really needs to sink in that i am worth it, i am worth the wait.
this is a picture of my current blessing.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Monday, October 12, 2009
i've decided that this will be a place where i'll be honest. if i cant even do that here, how can i do that in person.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
nth beats waking up to a sms that goes smthg along the lines of "hey sunshine, time to wake up!". opening the door to a face that eager awaits a kiss from you. running to hug that someone after a long day. searching the crowded room constantly for his reassuring eyes. knowing at the end of the day, someone is fully for you, and never against you. that kind of love, empowers you, strengthens you.
i used to live on that. part of my flesh still craves that even right now. who doesn't like to be loved? to be appreciated? to be held.
but you know when she/he is 'the one' or 'not the one' i guess. watched 500 days of summer. and i couldn't help but cry, cos i understand how the female lead character feels. it's not that those feelings weren't real or she was faking it or she was just being a bitch. she just knew he was not 'the one'. it's sooo much more than that, than just feelings.
anyhow! the show inspired me to write a song. so i did. haha. working on it right now. lalala. school starts again tmr! exam on thursday! i love econs. pls love me back too (:
21st bday party was a blasssssttt! (:
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Friday, October 09, 2009
this 21st bday calls for reflection..
People hurt people.
Somebody in this group hurt somebody in that group... And they haven't done the work to apologize and make amends and work through it. When i meet someone who has been burned by an institution, my first question is, "What was the person's name?"
We'll never heal until we can identify who did what when. Only then can we begin the process of being set free.
People who move from relationship to relationship, church to church, group of friends to group of friends, may do this because they have a hard time connecting and committing. Some people refuse to humble themselves and do the difficult work of learning how to forgive and reconcile, and so whenever a relationship hits a bump or turns sour, they leave it. They move on to the next one.
abstract from Rob Bell "Sex God"
spent last night (bday night) with friends. it was fun, but i yearn for deeper connections w friends. i do. yet i'm scared of such connections and what they may bring. im really far from perfect, and i do alot of stupid things sometimes. sometimes i cant even explain or give reasons for what i do. i believe this is the Word for me for the coming year. heeding Wisdom, Jesus in all that i do.
"But whoso hearkens to me [Wisdom] shall dwell securely and in confident trust and shall be quiet, without fear or dread of evil" Proverbs 1:33
party is tmr night, and theres sooo much to do. rahh. i just want to have fun meeting friends. can i not decorate the place? can i not have a cake? roarrr.
i want/need time with You. I made all the time in the world for you to spend with Me.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Saturday, October 03, 2009
i rejected Israel's acceptance for me for next yr feb to june. probably re-apply for the aug-dec term. i cant wait! currently SoundFoundry duties are piling up. this week's packed with auditioner-ing, and workshops! need to meet up w Syed to discuss how we could hook up with Timbre too! then theres Ambassadors' party, and my own bday party. this term break isn't much of a term break. i officially start studying tmr. today, i rest. restrestrestrest. longing to run now though. running releases endorphines i think.
mums friends are over at our place now. i wonder whether i'd have such long time friends. friends from her days in scgs. thats crazy long i say.
watched Funny People with ggtay, ez, and jie last night. 150mins! not a very funny show, but rather meaningful. i think Adam Sandler is moving into more meaningful productions, contrary to his lameass stuff done in the past.
i like how the movie: "you will never be happy until you get you away from you!" and start caring more abt others. i need to get away from me more often. ha
movie ended abt 4am. i couldnt sleep till 6am. i think you sounded alot like mr SA Tan. woke up to very discouraging words at 2pm today. making me reflect much. thankful for michelle, joy, and daryl for being honest friends w me.
im thinking abt my party on friday. i have too many ppl to thank. howhowhow.
ok i go eat lunch now. bye.
this is sarah and melissa. the 2 prettypretty SINGLE girls who kindly rendered their time to help me organise my 21st. feel much love fr em (:
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
i dont know why i always bring this upon myself. argharghargh. really no time to deal w such things. september is certainly proving to be challenging. i will rise above this!
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
in the end, it matters. Linkin Park has this song that goes "in the end, it doesn't even matter".
it's funny, cos i really dislike Linkin Park songs (no offense to LP lovers), but that particular lyric stays in your mind you know. i don't know any youth who hasn't heard of that song. i do remember back then, those late nights in Phuture/Zouk, this osng was usually be the DJ's closing song. we'd all scream out the lyrics "i tried so hard, and got so far, in the end, it doesn't even matter!" then we'd all leave being semi-drunk and very emo about our lives.
----- WELL, at least, that was me. for years, that lyric became inherent in me. i became fatalistic in everything i did/say/thought. there is no way i'm going to change, there's no way i'm going to be able to live otherwise. why bother abt the consequences? cant clean up this mess, not gonna bother to. no one really bothers, why should i. some nights i'd cry in bed abt how the pile of 'shit' in my life was just piling up, how pathetic i felt inside abt my life and abt myself.
SO it's been almost a year since Dad really put His big hand right in the middle of my heart and life, and replaced the broken thing with Jesus - right smack in the middle of it. the last year has been alot of establishing establishing establishing. yet soooo many time, soooo many countless times i caught myself saying "heck it" or "why is this taking so long" or "why am i still like this". yet those sooooo many times, He catches hold of me and continues to nurse me back into wholeness, drowning me in His love, embracing me with His grace.
Ezekiel 11:19 I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh.
slowly He has been giving me that undivided heart. what is balance to man, is mixture to God. He has been tipping the 'balance' in me. my heart can't serve 2 gods, it is built to only serve One. today i learnt something so pertinent to what has been happening in my life. Dad's been telling me to wait on Him, to be patient w myself, to let Him do His work in me. today these verses really spoke volumes to my heart.
James 1 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Luke 21 By standing firm you will gain life. (NIV) By your steadfastness and patient endurance you shall win the true life of your souls. (AMP)
PATIENCE. patience. patience. in the process, in the journey, as i seek His face and His kingdom first, He will slowly add things on to me, i will NOT be lacking in anything. the world's way is: get into the rat race, else you lose out. Dad's way is: wait on me, seek Me, I will add to you in time!
by being patient, i also give NO way for the devil into my soul. i take hold of my own soul, continuously beholding Him, just enjoying Him. the devil will have no space, no way with me at all. by being patient, im not waiting for smthg to fill my time, not waiting for someone to fill my 'heart'. by being patient, i am allowing Him to establish things in my heart, making room for Him to move in. where He is, the devil has no place. --
in the end, it does matter. every tear matters. every cry matters. every crack matter. in the end, it matters to Him that you give Him your heart - for Him to enter and fill it, and restore it. it matters that you don't waste one day thinking you're not loved. it matters that you don't waste one day thinking there's no hope. it matters that you don't waste one day thinking you're not worth it. because you're made worth it by birth (through Jesus) not worth! (: He can take your ashes and turn it into beauty!
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
in all this chaos we find safety.
about exodus 19. it was then that God had brought the Israelites out of Egypt. there were at Mt Sinai, and there, Moses represented the people before God. --- And the LORD said to Moses, 11"Go to the people and consecrate them today and tomorrow. Have them wash their clothes 11 and be ready by the third day, because on that day the LORD will come down on Mount Sinai in the sight of all the people. 12 Put limits for the people around the mountain and tell them, 'Be careful that you do not go up the mountain or touch the foot of it. Whoever touches the mountain shall surely be put to death. 13 He shall surely be stoned or shot with arrows; not a hand is to be laid on him. Whether man or animal, he shall not be permitted to live.' --- the people's sin could not stand in God's presence, they would die. Still, God wanted to come close as possible as He could to His people. So He warns them. so, the people were told to wash their clothes, to consecrate themselves to prepare for the lord's coming. still, on the third day.. -- 21 The people remained at a distance, while Moses approached the thick darkness where God was. -- to me, i've always thought Moses was special. ppl like Abraham, Moses, Joseph, Paul - God's special persons. yet as i read this, God was like "hey, that's how you are to me. you are like Jesus to me. you are My daughter." how much more! i gave my one and only Son for you.
the significance of the 'third day'. after 3 days of washing their clothes, consecrating themselves, abstainance etc. still, they could only see God from afar. His presence enveloping Mt Sinai. they could only SEE it from afar, they could not FEEL or EXPERIENCE or KNOW Him the way Moses could. all our trying to wash our sins, trying to make ourselves holy just won't do.
but Jesus did it all. He was the perfect sacrifice. the sanctified one, the Holy One. He became sin who knew no sin. He became us, that we may become Him. that the Father can come close to us, and we can draw near and he will SURELY draw near. not cos of what i do or what i can do, but because of what He has done. once and for all. paid. in full. if we could just realise this..
Jesus went through allllll that: pain, hell, forsakeness, death. all that, for us. that we can access His presence, we can know Him the way Jesus did. that is AH-MAZINGG! somebody shouttttt AMEN.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Monday, July 27, 2009
last night (saturday) at The Zone, w Hillsong United and Ps Judah Smith, left me undone. last night, i was at the right place, at the right time. as much as my physical body didn't want to be. there was such a release. thank you geegeetay & sexyladymichelletan for praying for me. it was a Word for me, in season, at the right time. it was also the first time i felt heat in my hands when i prayed for others' healing! i had the revelation about how Jesus said that we will lay hands on the sick and they will be healed. we just need to lay those hands, and He'd get to work!
i dare say, Jesus was in that expo hall! simply because we wanted Him to be.
oh man. i have to get used to this. this IS life. getting w Jesus daily, is THE Life. "He came to give us life and life more abundantly" (John10:10b) in some versions, it means "the God-kind of life" or "life as God has it". the life of freedom, of peace, of joy, of hope! everything He has, is mine. my Beloved mine, i His.
i never felt i led a 'normal'/good life. you know the usual, happy family scenario; happy relationships; great choices/decisions made. in fact, i've made pretty crappy decisions my whole life. i've always known it in my head that He can restore to me what i don't have currently, but i never really believed it. last night, it got straight into my spirit, into my heart. it was as though Jesus just came and He just carved out on my heart:
"YOU HAVE A GOOD LIFE IN ME! YOU ARE MINE."
even as i type this, i just feel his "aggressive love"(in jeremyho's word) gripping me. i don't know how else to live now except by getting with JC daily. i have to keep on expecting good things to happen to me, cos im His child. He's my Dad. He gives me good things. so, good things i shall expect.
today durin service, a song just rose up in my heart: surely surely Your goodness follows me surely surely Your goodness follows me all the days of my life. amen!
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Friday, July 24, 2009
it's 1.30am. just submitted my personal statement and CV to prof, so she can write stuff for me as my Academic Referee. i want to go, yet i don't.
israel. always been a place i've wanted to visit. evermoreso after discovering God's grace this year. going to the actual places Jesus did, having the places in the bible become fully alive to me. wow. 6mths, new environment, new people - away from family & friends. more time to talk to Dad, time to write songs, time to read the Word, much time! considering that time is but a luxury for me now.
as i typed my personal statement it really hit me that hey this is what i want to do for my life. i want to understand people, hence the 1st major in psychology and 2nd major in corporate communications. so many hasbeens, couldhavebeens, mighthavebeens. so many times i withdraw from or mistreat others out of fear. i have tried to beat myself into a pulp for doing so, but Dad says it takes time. so in this time, He is establishing me in His truths about me and about Him. till there's no more fear. doesn't matter if they don't understand why. Dad's got His angels watching over and guiding your every step leading you in My ways. just believe, and rest.
regret is such a terrible thing. if i go to israel for real, i want to not regret it. ---
much has been happening for me. internship, co-chairing international day of peace in smu, 3gigs coming up. i just hope im not making my plate too full and leaving myself with less time for what i really love: sent1s has been growing. when i think about the 12 persons, it just make me smile, cos He's really working in & through them. they encourage me so much. ncc youth conference this saturday, cant hardly wait!
"theres more hunger for God in pubs and clubs than there is in some churches" Yahweh, we want more of You.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Monday, July 06, 2009
draw nigh.
so i've been working for the past month at this place. and my brain starts degenerating the moment i step into the office. HAHA. no la. i guess being an intern under the corp sec dept means just doing menial paper work and filing. i shan't complain. they are paying me to do nothing. though they're paying me almost nothing.
daryl left for hillsong conference last night. and my spirit feels like it's in sydney too. haha. i love worshipping with other worshippers. i think everytime we get together to praise His Name, and proclaim His promises, we do damage to satan's ploys. i think that when believers stand together, and are united, that's when the devil just pees in his pants and left clueless as to what to do. i think, that's damn cool! ha. lately, our pastors have been constantly reminding us that we are already a priesthood because of what Jesus has done, and we just need to start behaving like we are. a priesthood with a heavenly inheritance!
yesterday, Rev Tan Yeo preached from Exodus 19. Exodus has been a favourite for me as of late. been studying it when i have the time. i think it is amazing how much the OT foreshadows what Jesus was to do in the NT. to me, that makes the Bible the most wow book ever. the Author is just brilliant man.
Dad, You're truly a Wow-er.
ok. more tmr! on Exodus 19 that is. just got back from orangutan's place and im beat!
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
changing us, calling us.
Exodus 33:21-23 Then the LORD said, "There is a place near me where you may stand on a rock. When my glory passes by, I will put you in a cleft in the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by. Then I will remove my hand and you will see my back; but my face must not be seen."
i love how the OT has been coming alive to me ever since Sunday. indeed, forgiveness unlocks the anointing of God on our lives. that we can do the things of God with ease, with power. i think God is so amazing. He's the coolest. been reading Exodus. and it's so amazing, how God wanted so much to grant Moses request to see His glory. but because His glory was to weighty and holy, Moses only got a glimpse of God's back parts. though Moses had found favour in God's eyes, being human he would have died if God's full glory had been revealed to him. it's a wow-er that God placed Moses in a cleft in the rock and put His hand on Moses, so that Moses won't die. that Rock i believe, was a foreshadow of what Jesus would do and has done alr. Jesus, continuously interceding for us, that we can see His glory now if we just believe! Jesus, the perfect sacrifice, the Rock in which God has placed us in, that we CAN see His face when we seek Him.
i think we all need to be ministered to, to be preached to. listening to ps prince preach, having fellowship with ppl like ez,mich,daryl,jie,georgie has added so much to my spirit. we need each other. we need to be united. it was His desire for us to be one, as They are One (:
i'm eggcited. arent you? -----
work has been rather slack. new girl came in. so my job has been split amongst the two of us. i take x3 the time i take to do my tasks now, cos theres really nth much for me to do here. haha. so i've been biblegatewaying! hehe. ever since Sunday when georgie proclaimed forgiveness over my life, i feel quite different. it's quite amazing what He's done in me. even i'm not used to it. i usually __ and now i'm like "hmm do i really like to ___? i dont!"
thank You Dad You rock.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
believers who don't gauge their relationship with God by whether they received a salary raise, by how things are going with their bank account, or by how much "fun" they've had during church activities. they have joined Paul by saying, "but none of these things move me, neither count i my life dear unto myself, so that i might finish my course with joy, and the ministry, which i have received of the Lord Jesus, to testify the gospel of the grace of God" (acts 20:24) this is the confession of people in love and in intimate communion with their Maker.
God is calling.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
if only you had taken the time to watch and understand
why.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
my heart beat fastfast when i watch this
my head keep nodding too
i really want. reallyreally.
pretty amazing cos prior to watching this vid, the same stuff (that they said in the vid) have been coming up when i am praying w the band before leading worship or before combined cell.
session today with lyn was really what i needed. geegeetay orangutan and i met at our usual hang at cityhall. just these last 2 weeks i have been feeling really impatient - as i used to be so many times in the last 5 of my life. often i say 'screw this' and pursue other things. but this time, i have knowledge. mothermeyer has said so many times that we must learn to sit, stand, and then run. it's not always about running. it's the sitting/standing part that's really difficult. don't talk abt spiritually. physically, i find it difficult to sit still, like i will always shake my leg. ezraho can testify to tt cos it irritates him alotalot. haha. but yes, today i was reminded abt how beautiful waiting on Him can be. to have Him reveal each small step to you, having faith that a beautiful big picture will result at the end of it. i'm not ready, i know. just impatient. faithful in small things i need to be. keep at it till He calls, till i hear.
this was a wow-er for me when lyn talked abt Habakkuk 2 with us today. 1 I will stand my watch And set myself on the rampart, And watch to see what He will say to me, And what I will answer when I am corrected.
a rampart means a high place. we are seated in the heavenly realms at the His right hand (eph2:6). it means that when we hear from God, it's from a high place, spiritually speaking - as lyn pointed out. watching to see what He will say 'to me' - in me, in my spirit. i answer in obedience to His correction; He disciplines, strengthens, and establishes me! i think it comes from getting rooted in the Word. i remember Ps Andy preaching way back in his youthworker days about how the Word of God is like a mirror. it not only allows us to reflect His glory, but it reveals our flaws. i believe, when we read the Word, it allows Him to shine out those flaws. bible says we're changed from glory to glory, as behold His glory as in a mirror. yeahh.
i want to run with people like that. persons i can flow with, worship longlong with, share with, pray with, and just hang out tgt with Jesus. pray them in, it is.
oh yes the next 2 verses is the beautiful part of Habakkuk 2 (The Message) 2-3And then God answered: "Write this. Write what you see. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be readon the RUN. This vision-message is a witness pointing to what's coming. It aches for the coming—it can hardly wait! And it doesn't lie. If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Monday, April 27, 2009
i alomst cried when i heard this song on samsui boy's ipod during study week. then he was like "wah don't emo leh" haha. james morrison's voice is just so.. soulful and piercing. lovely lyrics. lyrics are really :( yet (: .
[Jason Mraz ft. James Morrison - Details in the Fabric ]
Calm down Deep breaths And get yourself dressed instead Of running around And pulling all your threads and Breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it If it’s a broken arm then brace it If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own Know your name And go your own way
And everything will be fine Hang on Help is on the way Stay strong I'm doing everything ....
Are the details in the fabric Are the things that make you panic Are your thoughts results of static cling? ....
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own) Are the things that make you panic (Know your name) Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine? (Go your own way) Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own) Hell no reason go on and scream (Know your name) If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way) Of faulty manufacturing
Everything will be fine Everything in no time at all Hearts will hold
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
cbox is back up for my dear joyy (:
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
my cbox has been removed due to improper usage.
it's time to move on.
i think sometimes i get into the little box that thinks "oh i'm so special, i have this calling on my life. no one else does." yet, everytime that thought comes i, i literally have to hold it captive and give it to the Lord to deal with. such thoughts make me withdraw from others, making me feel alone. i think many other bros and sisters fall into that 'trap' too. we don't share our dreams with each other cos we think ours is more special. so i've been committing such thoughts to the Lord over the past few months, and today, really. i just told the devil to stop it. i want to share. i want to encourage others and be encouraged. so what if God has called you do that big thing and i don't think i've got that big a thing ahead of me? i don't care. i am going to encourage you. i am going to support you. (and i hope, you'd do the same for me instead of seeing me as a 'threat' to your big dream haha)
had a chat with mum on the way home from massage yesterday. i was telling her some of my plans for which i have prayed and have a lot of peace about - i want to be able to finance my tuition fees to a bible/music college in future. mum suggested bible college locally first. we had a whole debate abt whether i should go to college A or college B. college A, she says, too Charismatic, no grounding. college B, however, gives you more theology grounding. i agreed with her about her 2 statements, ruling out the words 'too' and 'more' of course. i told her i think i'll head to college A after smu. because as much as teaching of theology isn't that strong, they teach you how to apply the Word in my life. i want to grow more and more in love with the Word such that i won't need some theology teacher to give me a read-the-bible-in-a-year list. i'd just read the bible whenever i have the time cos i'd be so drawn to the treasures His Word holds. the holy spirit is the best teacher ever, and he'd teach me every single time my heart is opened.
i'm so eggcited about what is ahead. i agree with lyn when she says God leads you in a little steps, cos that's exactly what's happening in my life now. i have to stop leaping ahead of Him. it's a marathon. i need to continue to lead a sustainable life.
over the last few mths He has taught me to stop waiting for something/someone to happen to me then decide whether i'll be happier. i think many people live their lives from one event to another, one sch to another, one person to another, one job to another. i am speaking from experience. haha. always hoping that 'moving on' from somewhere will make life better/happier. it's an endless fruitless pursuit. we don't realise that we have the absolute authority to take back what is ours. we don't need events/things/people to make us happier. Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. so much of an abundance in His kingdom. in our relationship with Him as His heirs. so much, seriously lacking no good thing. and for yearrrrrrs, i've led my life thinking "oh my life sucks. i don't have this, i dont' have that". dumbdumb.
".. to give you hope in your final outcome" Jeremiah 29:11 [AMP]
so, stop getting stuck in places that have no life for you anymore.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
2nd Peter 1: 19 "And we have the word of the prophets made more certain, and you will do well to pay attention to it, as to a light shining in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star rises in your hearts."
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
so, smugging times are over. China and internship ahead of me. much planning & preparation for China to do still. need to get them chinese bibles and learn how to share the gospel in mandarin. big challenge!
let it be a sweet sweet sound in Your ear.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
why did you choose water over wine?
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Thursday, April 09, 2009
You sing all around.
Your problem is you're forming your thoughts off the past instead of the future. Don't do that! Unbelief looks at the past and says, "See, it can't be done." But faith looks at the future and says, "It can be done, and according to the promises of God, it is done!" Then putting past failures behind it forever, faith steps out and acts like the victory's already been won.
The spiritual aches and pains that crippled you for so long will quickly disappear. Instead of looking behind you and saying, "I can't," look ahead and say, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" -----
"what is the church doing? we should be the pioneers.. we have an authority that comes from Christ.. lives in every single one of us.. an attitude of going out and serving the world with love. "
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
so i managed to complete 3 chapters of psych today. congratulations and celebrations! (: i've got 2 more psych chapters. and PLENTY obhr and rmss chapters to go. give me the desire to study, so that i can be excellent in what i do. arigato!
best team everxxxx
they dont know how long it takes. it can only get better. right?
in my twin's words "wait for it!"
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Monday, April 06, 2009
OASIS concert was a let down. nonetheless, enjoyed the company very much. kitty, gerald, sam & peiyun. heh. smugging intensive begins. so no more late nights for elissa oh. --- "But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night.
He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers."
Psalms 1:2-3
pat totally preached it at combined cell on saturday night. pre-combined cell prayer was so refreshing. i realise, everyone who came as representatives of their cells were abide members, and the cell leaders themselves. it was so refreshing. i felt everyone's deep passion and desire for growth in XS. deeper this year. deeper.
at Love Actually, SMU, 14 Feb 2008 [click on the play symbol ] (L-R: gerald, me, joncheong, bunny - our very 1st noob performance)
for you, whoever you may be.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Friday, April 03, 2009
i am currently learning how to play this song well, and sing well at the same time! 1st try at screme was quite blah. haha. trying to finish up my rmss paper in the library now. joy's next to me watching videos -.- starry night later so going to hopefully catch samuel and gerald rockin' it out. ah im so easily distracted. boo
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
presentation in 11hours.
i am not scared of presentations anymore. i think that's a very scary fact. -----
this makes me smile (: you guys make me smile.
i enjoyed leading worship with the earthwired guys (you know who you are) very much. everyone was on the same page, and it made the experience of working together so enjoyable. more to come yes. haha.
--- 2nd Corinthians 4:6-7 For God Who said, Let light shine out of darkness, hasshone in our hearts so as [to beam forth] the Light for the illumination of the knowledge of the majesty and glory of God [as it is manifest in the Person and is revealed] in the face of Jesus Christ (the Messiah).
However, we possess this precious treasure [the divine Light of the Gospel] in [frail, human] vessels of earth, that the grandeur and exceeding greatness of the power may be shown to be from God and not from ourselves.
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our bodies, our lives, our talents, our whole being is to show the grandeur and exceeding greatness of Him who called us out of darkness into light. i think that when we present (as said in romans 12:1) our everything to Him, He takes it and He makes something beautiful out of it. He multiplies it. so much so that it can only be said to have come from Him. i want that. i want my life&worship continue to be an overflow from a continuous beholding of His face.
continue to stir up that desire in me.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
Thursday, April 02, 2009
it's been a long time coming.
after a long long time. elissa oh is back to being a cam whore! *applause, pls. studied with ezraho yday. then dinnered with jojo at this super funny jap place with funny signs like the one below. DAMN FUNNY RIGHT. i really rofl when i saw this. anyway jojo conned me into treating him dinner cos it was his bday. so im quite not very rich now :( met up with seth & joses late at night for drinks. so, nice time catching up w them. mr seth tan has yet to submit his application as my study partner for my consideration. haha. i hate it that he's living my dream of riding a vespa. roarrrrr.
ok off to sch now for mtg. byebyebye.
♥sealed by Your sacrifice.
my treasure.
my Beloved mine, i His (:
Isaiah 61:3 "..to bestow upon them a crown of beauty, instead of ashes.
Luke 7:47
"Therefore I tell you, her sins, many [as they are], are forgiven her--because she has loved much. But he who is forgiven little loves little."
Philippians 3:13
"..I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.
But ONE thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead"
♥-it!
she is
elissa oh liying turned two-o on 7th october scgs ceejay SMU
